Hello Friends!
I am currently 29 Weeks and 5 days. Time feels like it has been flying by. I have been officially off of work for just over a week now, I started having some complications a couple of weeks ago. I thought I was having some really bad braxton hicks but it turns out they were early contractions, since I'm a first time mom I didn't really know what to expect or what was really happening haha. I went to my doctor and he decided that it was time to take me off, that way baby can hopefully cook for a little longer... I mean it feels like it is wayyy to early for him to come.
Him... did you catch that? Yup, we are having a little boy! I am so over the moon excited, I was convinced we were having a girl so, when the technician said a boy I was super shocked. But in a good way of course, I have always wanted a boy first and finding out that this little guy is indeed a boy just made it that much better.
I've been feeling pretty good lately, I do find that as I'm getting closer and closer to the end I'm beginning to get a lot more nervous. Anxiety is beginning to seep in and thinking about labour is freaking me the F out. I know it's something that I will be able to handle (with drugs, of course!) but it's just a very nerve wracking thing to think about... it's gonna hurt, REALLY BAD. I just keep trying to focus on the fact that when its all over I will have a perfect little baby in my arms and it will all be worth it. Right? That's what you have to tell yourself? Lol people, I'm freaking out over here!!
It's kind of mind boggling how quickly time seems to be going, I'm sure once I reach my final month it'll feel like every single day is the longest day of the year but I'm looking forward to time slowing down a bit. Life is about to change in a very big way and while I'm ready for that change the thought of it is daunting. I know that we can do this, Brent and I are very capable of being parents but I just don't want to mess it up, you know? I know things won't be perfect but I'm hoping they'll be my kind of perfect. Everyday will be a day of learning, I'm sure we will fail epically at times but I hope that we (mainly me) can take it in stride, laugh at our hardships and just enjoy the ride. It's an exciting and crazy time in our lives but I know that the amount of support we have is endless and if I'm not too hard on myself it's going to be the best time of our lives.
Here's to another 10ish weeks of being baby free, eek... it's the final countdown!
Have a wonderful Tuesday xo
