total honest tuesday

So, I've decided to jump on the #totalhonesttuesday bandwagon. 

I think that it is such an amazing idea, a lot of times on instagram and blogs you only see the side of peoples lives that are done up, planned, photographed and re-photographed. Having a hashtag that allows a little bit of honesty once a week is pretty neat, if you ask me. 

This photo was taken last Wednesday. A lot of good things happened that day, Brent and I got photographed for a news paper article (yay!!) and we went to ikea (double yay!!). But my mood was having NO part of it. I was in the worst mood all day, I mean I was crying for no reason, I felt like I had a weight on my chest and my anxiety was just sky rocketing. 

It's funny how it just hits me sometimes for no reason. No matter how much I tried to smile and pretend it was gone it was sitting there whispering in my ear, making me feel worse and worse as the day went on. 

When I was in my mood Brent sat down with me and hugged me and told me he understood how I felt and that he had felt the same way a few days before too. As soon as he said that I said, "you were as sad as I am? That's soo sad" and then went on to cry because I knew how upset I was and I hated that he had felt that way too. He looked at me and literally laughed so hard. I was just a bit of a sloppy & crazy mess! 

The photo above was taken about half an hour after my little melt down. I look perfectly decent, not upset at all. It just goes to show you that a picture is one thing and how someones reality could be completely different. 

I am happy to report though that I have been feeling back to my happy and normal self! It was just a day where I had to let all the feels out and now I feel much better :) 

I hope that you have a wonderful week friends and if you're having a rough day, it's okay! Let it all out, give yourself the day to feel sorry for yourself but the next morning pick yourself up and tell your brain that you've got this! You're stronger than you think! 

xo