to my past

When problems tried to get fixed but instead the wrong thing is said and it just leads to a bigger problem, it becomes a snowball effect. I am not perfect. I have my flaws, I have been a bad friend in the past and I've owned up to that. Sometimes my honesty is bigger than me, I believe that there is such thing as being too honest because no one ever really wants to hear the whole truth. Because the truth isn't always pretty, it can be ugly and hurtful. If there's one thing I wish that I can hold back its my tongue, this damn tongue of mine can get me into trouble.

I was taught that honesty is the best policy but what if that honesty leads to the pain of someone else, someone who can't handle it? What do you do then? Do you just smile and say that everything is okay? Do you just fake it? That's my problem. I physically can't. If I am upset with someone I will tell them. If I am hurt by someone I will let them know it. Often times I try to do it nicely but sometimes I can also do it harshly, I can be mean and hurtful. That is the defence mechanism that I use. You want to hurt me? Let me show you how I can hurt you more. It's not the right way to do things at all but after years of bullying and being let down its what I learned to do and it's something I need to learn to undo. Because I do not want to be that person. I am better than that. I know that I am.

Everyone makes choices, your life is filled with them you can choose to do the right thing or the wrong thing. Although you may have your reasons for the choices you made, you need to also learn that they were your decisions and you have to be okay with the outcome from them. I chose to pull myself out of an equation that was harming my well being, I was becoming a bitter and ugly soul and I did not want to be that person. I chose to walk away from a situation in which I felt at this moment was best for me.

Life throws at you things that you can handle, in my current situation I know that I can handle it. I am pissed off  but I am also incredibly sad. Sad because I tried to fix something that had been broken a long time ago and it got to a point that it was damaged beyond repair. Sad that I lost someone who I thought was important to me. Sad that who I thought that person was, was all a lie.

I read a quote online that 100% explained how I have been feeling this last week, it said:

 "I'm not crying because of you: You're not worth it. I'm crying because my delusion of who you were was shattered by the truth of who you are." 

I think I will leave you with that quote, there is not much left to say. This blog is my outlet and although I try to keep it as positive as I can sometimes I need to remind myself that life isn't all daisies and butterflies. Life can be painful but it is also beautiful and real. Once you let go of the negative you can see how beautiful it can be. 

QOTW

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I can honestly say that this quote just speaks for itself. Starting a business has been the most uncomfortable, stressful, hectic and rewarding experience. I know that it's only just the beginning and that excites me. I'm not naive, I know owning a business is A LOT of hard work but sitting on my ass not doing a thing wasn't getting me anywhere. 

Brent and I decided to make a change together, we wanted to have a purpose and to make a change. We're getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. I believe that great things are coming. I'm telling the universe that I want great things. I'm out of my comfort zone and I'm ready for this. 

Weekend update

This weekend was one of the best weekends I've had in a very long time! You know when just one day sets the mood for the rest of your weekend? Well Friday was my day. I had been told over a month ago by my sister that I needed to book the 23rd off, nothing else was said. I actually completely forgot about it until Monday when she reminded me and thats when I started getting curious. Still she didn't let on, all she said was it was a sister date. Come Friday and this girl is still keeping her lips shut, not a peep about what we were doing up until we got to the restaurant. We arrived at milestones and me being the sneaky one that I am, I looked around to see if I recognized any cars. I saw nothing and finally relaxed and thought how sweet it was that she decided to take me out. Once we got inside, we were guided to our personal table that had 7 seats and in one of them was my best friend! I was completely taken aback. I am not surprised very often because i ALWAYS find out haha but this time I was completely shocked. My sister pulled off the sweetest bridal party and it was so unbelievably great. I definitely cried and just felt so much love.

We were later joined by my future sister in laws and my future cousin in laws. It was such a special night, I am so blessed and grateful to have such a strong group of women who are so supportive of me. I am truly a lucky girl. 

Free cheescake for the win. YUM

There was one more event that made my night THAT much better. My mom called me in the middle of dinner and announced that she had found my pandora bracelet. For those of you who don't know the story, this is kind of a BIG deal. I thought I lost my bracelet almost two years ago in Chicago. I could've sworn I brought it back with me but I couldn't find it for the life of me. Talking about the bracelet was a bit of a soft spot for me, since it did have a lot of charms on it and it was extremely special to me. But alas, my mom found it in one of my very old bags (that I SWEAR I looked through at least three times) and it was just the icing on the cake, for such a great night. 

Top was mine, middle was the company's and bottom was Brents! 

Saturday was a pretty laid back day we worked on our workshop (it's coming along!) pictures will be up as soon as it's done! That night we ordered chinese (naughty, naughty!) and we got these fortune cookies that were dead on. One for Brent, one for me and one for the company. They all fit and I kept them because I just think that they're special.

Sunday was a pretty exciting day, we unintentionally went wedding shopping. Brent bought his suit for the wedding and boy does he look handsome!! We also bought my wedding band and at a much cheaper price than we initially had saved up.

Overall, this weekend was laid back, relaxing, filled with so much love and happiness. I truly believe that once you let go of the negativity surrounding you and embrace the positive, good things will happen. You just gotta open up to it.

Hope you all have a lovely Monday!

Mini Pumpkin Candles

One thing I love about my business is the fact that I can do SO many different crafts with the candle powder and that is just wicked cool. I love crafting and I've had to take a break from it since I was working so much but now my job IS crafting and selling an awesome product that I really believe in, so all is right with my life. 

Anyways, this is a simple and fun craft (using The Greatest Candle powder) that literally took me 10 minutes to do! Listening to music really helps make it that much more fun! 

Step One

First step is hollowing out your mini pumpkin. Use a knife to cut a hole at the top of the pumpkin. 

Step 2

Scoop out the flesh, I used a knife, a spoon and then my fingers to get it all out. 

Step 3

A mini pumpkin doesn't take much candle wax since it's pretty small. I made a regular 100ml candle and just divided it up between pumpkins (it made three for me). Follow The Greatest Candle instructions to make your candle wax. 

Step 4

Pour the wax into the pumpkin, it will sizzle since the candle wax is hot and the pumpkin is cold but that's okay! Slowly insert the candle wick. Use the candle wick holder to keep the wick in place.  

Step 5

 20 minutes later your candle should be set and you have a super cute fall decoration that smells good and is environmental friendly! :) 

 

 

You can buy The Greatest Candle product HERE. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! :)

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Hello my chickens!!

I have been completely M.I.A on the blog for the last few months but I have good reason! For the last few months Brent and I have been working SO hard on building our new business and its pretty scary/exciting.

We have literally gone balls to the wall with this one but we are so excited and we really believe in this product.

I introduce to you, The Greatest Candle in the World. This is a product that is so amazing. You make your own candles (or buy already made candles) using used (or virgin) cooking oil! It is such a fun craft and so easy that anyone can do it! 

If you have a couple of minutes, please watch this video.

For all the awesome info about it please click HERE to check out our website and get the full scoop! 

I will be blogging a lot more now that I finally have this project out in the open. Be ready to hear a lot about fun crafts, being an entrepreneur and just this fabulous thing that I call my life. I am so excited and SO ready to enjoy this life I have been blessed with.