"You control your happiness, not one other person does. You have the power to make yourself happy, you don't need someone else to. Whatever makes you happy, do it. Don't let anyone tell you different. It's your life, so make your own decisions. Don't worry about what people think about you, you probably won't talk to them a couple years down the road. So do what you want, and say what you feel." - unknown

Happy Happy Friday! 

Is it just me or has this week felt strangely long, even though monday was a holiday? It's probably just me. Anyways, as I have posted earlier this year, I have chosen happiness as my word of the year. I will admit I'm not "happy" every day but I have become a happier me. 

I have been working SO hard at it, everyday I wake up in the morning and reassure myself its going to be a good day. When it turns out to be a crap day, I always find time be it at the end of the day or in the middle of my frustrations, to always remind myself life is good. It's really not as bad as I'm making it seem, it never is. 

I found this quote the other day, is just so perfect for me. For years I lived my life to make other people happy. Friends, ex's and certain family members, I was always a people pleaser. Now that I'm "older" I have come to the conclusion that I just don't need to please everyone anymore. 

I feel like I am so slowly becoming who I am meant to be. Yes, yes this is a corny post but hear me out. For years I felt like I pushed down the real me. I pretended to be someone I'm not. I did things I never cared for and I hid my creative self, with fear of being made fun of or picked on. You see, when you get bullied for so many years, you start to change and be someone your not and then you become a really shitty you. 

In the last year, I have truly become Kathy. I am back to being my extremely weird self and I love it. I feel my creativity coming back slowly (but surely) and it feels so great. I have made the BEST of friends. I haven't felt this great about friendships in a long time but dang it, my friends rock. 

Last night I had a girls night with Cat and Mena, I can't remember the last time I have laughed so hard. A good belly laugh really is medicine for the soul. These girls are my rocks and I am so grateful for them, they have made me a better me and have allowed me to be myself. Crap, this post is so sappy, I love it! 

What I'm really trying to say, is to anyone who is reading this who has had those crap friendships, who has felt like they don't belong or aren't accepted, life is so good if you just let it be. By trimming the fat and not stressing about the small stuff, you allow yourself to be happy. Sure crappy things happen, they always do and they're inevitable but you don't have to let that situation define you. Be weird, be different and be wonderful. 

Who cares what the world and other people (who suck) think about you. You my friend are fricken awesome, just tell yourself that everyday and I promise you will one day believe it.