i'm back

Hello again.

It has been a long time since I have been on here. I have had many feelings in the last couple of weeks, if you haven't heard (are you living under a rock?) we are in the middle of a global pandemic and I (along with many others) am currently in self-isolation and having the need to write again.

I took a good two-year break from the blog because I became a mom. While many other bloggers continue their blogs and really make that money off their kids, I needed a break. I never really considered myself a "real" blogger and I've always done it for fun. I didn't (and still don't) have the energy to curate my life or nor do I care enough to post on the daily but now that I'm home 24/7 for who knows how long I feel like it's time to give my little blog some love.

So how has life been lately? Well it's had it's ups and downs, I'm finally working a job that I love. I am the market manager of my local Farmers' Market. It has been such an amazing experience and I truly feel like I'm working a job that was made for me. My son is now two and has the biggest personality known to mankind, he is definitely Portuguese and he is 100% as dramatic as I am and I wouldn't change him for the world. Brent is still the love of my life and honestly, I don't know how he has put up with me for so long! My family is doing well although my mom has been pretty ill for the last few months but thats a story for another day and I think that pretty much sums it up haha honestly I wouldn't want to bore you with the mundane.

I guess the biggest life change these days is the damn virus that is going on. There are a lot of feelings going on in me there's fear, exhaustion, hope, optimism, pessimism, anger, boredom etc. the list can get pretty long. I think that coming back to my little corner of the internet can be healthy for me, considering we are "social distancing" for the foreseeable future I think it'll be a nice way to stay connected with friends and family.

So welcome friends, old and new. I'm happy to be back and looking forward to staying connected with you during this very weird time in our lives.

Until the next time.

Kat xo

2018

Every year I choose a word to focus on, last year was self-love and honestly, I don't really feel like I followed through with it. Self-love has been one of the hardest things for me to conquer, I am my biggest critic and while that is not okay I'm glad that I am aware of it. Because I believe awareness is key for change.

For 2018 I am choosing the word commitment. I find that committing to things is extremely difficult for me, I tend to give up half way through a new goal or I'll accomplish a goal but instead of continuing on that path I'll stop. This year I want to commit to all that comes my way. 

Soon I will be facing my biggest task yet, a baby. That is obviously something you can't un-commit too. I know that this year will be the hardest, most rewarding and loving year of my life. Becoming a mother won't be easy, but I look forward to facing it head on. I won't say that it's me against the world because it's not true. I have a loving husband who will be an amazing father, my own parents who moved all the way to our city just to help us with this new addition, Brent's parents and siblings and of course my sister. They say that it takes a village to raise a child and I really believe it. 

I would also like to commit to yoga, I truly love it but find that my commitment to it is all over the place. In the last few weeks, it has helped me stay sane and find peace with all the coming changes. When I'm on the mat it's like everything around me settles and allows me to really get in touch with myself. I think that with the baby coming, it'll be beneficial for the both of us if I continue on this path to finding my inner peace since I'm sure it's going to get real hectic around here.

2018 is going to be a roller coaster but I'm strapped in and ready for the ride. I hope that you all have a beautiful and happy New Year. That all your goals will be met and that you live your best life. 

Love always, 

Kat 

32 weeks

Good afternoon friends! 

I'm currently 32 weeks + 4 days and most days I'm feeling pretty good. I've started to have the dreaded pregnancy insomnia, I was so sure I was in the clear but the last few nights have been a little rough. I've been only getting about 6 hours of (very broken) sleep but since I'm off work I can't complain because I get to nap whenever I want haha. 

In the last recent weeks I've taken up doing yoga again, I was having a really bad case of anxiety a couple of weeks ago and decided that I need to take charge of my mental health. I find that yoga helps immensely with it. I was told that anxiety is normal at this stage in pregnancy, the unknown of when he is coming and the fact that life is going to change drastically was beginning to get to me. Don't get me wrong, I am VERY excited to become a mom but the fact that this huge responsibility is coming my way is really daunting. I've heard that the moment you see your child it's like everything clicks and I really hope that happens because sometimes I'm just not sure if I'll be any good at it! With all that being said I find that sometimes my anxiety also comes from this overwhelming excitement that I have to meet this little dude. Some days I want him here NOW and others I'm glad I have a few more weeks of just Brent and I. It's like my feelings are all over the place haha but I don't think that pregnancy is this straight shooting deal. There are a lot of emotions that come with pregnancy, you're hormones are super whack so, it's gotta be normal to have all these different feelings... right? 

Anyways, it's crazy that Christmas is only a week away! I feel like this year has flown by. It's my favourite time of the year for sure though. I love getting together with family and eating all the yummy food. Theres nothing more special than spending time with your family, we're always so busy throughout the year that when it does come time for the holidays I really cherish the time I get to spend with them. I think it's safe to say I'm really looking forward to Christmas haha. 

I hope that your week before Christmas goes quickly and well! Here's to the last few weeks of 2017! Enjoy them! :)